sorry I have not written in a while this year has been so different but amazing. In October I met this boy name Daniel and I took a risk on him.. I let him into my life including my friends and family and everything is going so well we been together over 9 months and the more and more time goes on the more and more i love him. I love the fact he has a servants heart he will do anything for anyone, and he is really fun to be around.. He makes me feel like anything is possible as long as we are together. He is so supportive of my dreams.. He is the best guy for me and he knows that. Everything is so real with him I don’t have to be someone I am not.I love him..
September 30, 2008
I have been thinking about this a lot.. Forgiving people that have wronged you.. People that have hurt you some way.. God talks about loving you neighbor and not to judge others.. Life is to short and you shouldn’t hold grudges on people.. Believe me when I am mad I can be mad for a long time.. I am stubborn and I am trying to change that.. But nobody prefect we all mess up and everyone deserve a second chances.. We all sin it’s human and we try not to do but we all do.. But when some people sin if they hurt others those people don’t forgive them.. I don’t agree with that I think they my need to build up trust but they should give them a second chances sometime.. Life is way to short to hold a grudge life is over in a blink of an eye. We don’t want to regret holding on a grudge and that person pass away and knowing that we never told them we forgive them..
August 28, 2008
So lately I been thinking about
where God truly wants me… I think
I have to talked to at least 5 of my
friends about this since I have been
back for ny. Is youth ministry really
where he wants me.. I was so
positive about that is where he
wants me before I left for ny… And
now I am doubting it big time… I
know I belong at Quest for know..
But i also love doing social work
and helping people that way… I
know I could still do both work at a
shelter and also work at quest or
reality on weekends.. I know i still
have another two years before i
finish icc.. So I will just see where
God is calling me after that.. I just
need to have more faith in what
God is doing and trust him and
stop worrying about it..
Kelsey Roshelle Wilkes
July 28, 2008
I was thinking about home.. what is home is home a place where you grew up, you moved to or is a place where you feel the most like yourself.. People have tons of different places where they call home because they moved so much.. I am lucky and i have never lived any where else but peoria.. Can you make another place your true home?? I believe home is where you feel most a live and usually you have your friends and family there.. What I have learned as much as i love here in ny is still no home for me.. I have my own church her that I love.. But it is not home.. The church I have been going to it’s awesome I know nobody there so I just worship to God the whole time.. I love nwoods all my friends are there but here is just simple worship here..I miss that just worship alone with new people for a couple hours.. SOrry i am getting of topic.. But home is your home i can be anywhere.. so i hope you find it when you do it will be AWESOME!!!!
July 1, 2008
So I having been feeling really blessed..
A lot of these people have had a really hard life..
And I have a great family..
Wicked sweet friends..
And an amazing God..
My faith is growing so much in him this year..
Just not to worry and fully realy on god..
And I have friends that help me grow in my faith.
When I am stuck threw a rut..
They help me threw it..
I have a great support system back in ptown..
When ever I need it..
These people don’t..
So I am supporting them..
I have a easy life compared to them..
So i just want to say thanks to everyone..
Thats helped me along the way..
June 16, 2008
So I have been at a leader at quest for a year now.. I have gone to having these quit shy 7th grade girls to these now 8th grades girls who just can’t talk enough.. And I am loving every second of it… So I went into quest to make sure that god’s want me.. And it so is.. I love working with the youth and teaching god’s word to them.. I love being just involved in a part in there life.. Just for a couples of years but thats enough to impact them.. And just watching there faith grow in god..There is more greater gift than that.. I am just one person that will help them find god.. And I am so attached to them.. I love talking to them and just trying to help them out.. I never thought in a million years that i will become a youth pastor.. But if that where he truly wants me thats were i will be.. My faith has grown so much this year.. My love in god and just trust him about everything… I am so excited about teaching and helping others learn about god..For my job.. Nothing but working with the youth.. And serving god…
June 9, 2008
So lately I have been thinking a lot about the future.. Where I will be after I have my degree.. Will God still be calling me to work at northwoods.. Or will I end up at a small church.. Will god still be calling me to work with Junior High Students.. Or will I be called to work high schoolers.. Who knows if I will even end in Peoria.. I have a strong passion to work with this generation in Peoria.. But God may not want me to work in Peoria.. I hope I do.. But it is all up to God I am giving him trust that he will guide me where he wants me to be.. And if thats in Peoria and stay at Northwoods so be it.. And where he wants me to transfer too..Thats another big thing I am thinking about.. It’s all up to him.. I need to have faith that he will direct me wherever it is.. He made it already clear that he wants me to become a youth pastor.. So where he wants me teach that is up to him.. A life without faith and trust thats not a life at all…
May 27, 2008
So I got back yesterday from Kansas, Kansas city. There was about 8 of us that went from northwoods.. So about 8 hours later with getting lost a few time we finally arrived..So we decided to go to IHOP.. It was my first time to go to IHOP and it was so wicked sweet.. If you do not know what is IHOP is it is called international house of prayer… It’s open 24/7 for anyone who needs to pray or just go and worship. I have heard a lot about it but I never been there before.. It was so neat to see the different ages, sex and nationality worshiping together.. If you are ever in Missouri, Kansas city I suggest you go.. So we got to stay for a few hours on Saturday night than we went to the hotel and fell into a deep comma.. Well at least I did.. Than Sunday we finally arrived to pardise.. We were concerned about the weather when we got there it was storm and thundering.. Lucky the weather on stayed for about an half an hour.. Than the sun came out all day.. So we spent the first hour meeting another group.. The rest of the day was just silent worship.. It was so great to have that. I have been so busy with my school and just dumb drama.. That I need just time alone with god.. The attendance of pardise was about 6,000 i think someone told me.. We stayed there in the hot sun worshiping god for hours.. I love the turn out it was a long hot day but the day was just what I need.. Sometime it is great to get out of town and just clear your head.. I need it so much.. When you are in town, you always have gossip and i feel like my need always to help.. I have a hard time saying no to people.. I wanna help but i still need my own time to figure things out.. Thats what i got.. No cell not anything to district me from spending time with God.. And now I know what I need to do.. Got a straight shoot.. So after that we got to go back to IHOP that night well after we went to the hotel looking for ticks and getting cleaned up.. And than we went to whiteheads for dinner.. But IHOP was still AMAZING!!!! Over look of this weekend was so amazing and just what I need.. I need that time to spend with God.. I love the people i got to go with.. But that time without schedules or distraction was so great.. Just plan solid worship.. Just me and God.. I loved it!!!!!
April 2, 2008
Lately I have been really having a hard time with my class.. They are not hard or anything but they can miss you emotion up pretty bad.. I have been really emotional lately.. One of my class thats all we do it seems like we talk about are history in past not to judge on another. But to see what issues we still have in us that we thought we were over.. Are teacher want us to deal with are hidden emotion now so it will not effect us later when we work with a client that it won’t set anything off..I learned that I have so much on my mind , things that i put away now I am having to deal with it.. Doesn’t everyone do that?? Things they can’t handle they just ignore for a while and deal with them at a later date.. Some times realty is not the best places to be.. But I am finally at reality about everything and I am not liking it to much…
March 19, 2008
So last night we were talking about how advertisement is so dis grading a women. Like in the society a prefect women is about 5′10 height and weighs about 110. Have you ever met someone that tall and that thin??? Today diets are every where, is one thing to be health.. But women are getting anorexic more often and it is happening to young children.. Kids in grade school are thinking they are fat.. They are afraid if they don’t lose the weight now they will be fat when they grow up.. There idol are so skinny so they want to be like there idols. Idols use to be a great role model for kids but now a days they are not.. Kids are so scared about there weight that they are loosing just being a kid. Girls are not the only ones that have to worry about this image problem guys do too.. A guy has to muscular.. I just don’t understand this world anymore.. God gave us a different types of bodies for a reason so people are small and thin other are tall and fat or vice versa.. So why is image such a big deal??
